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Ego

There was silence.
Long, painful.
There was initiation.
Short, weak.
There was confusion.
Insane, intense.
There was acceptance.
Quick, concealed.
There was possession.
Complete, bleak.
There was denial.
Strong, cheap.
There was regret.
Constant, deep.

There was you.
There was me. 

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  1. Anonymous14 February 2011 at 13:32

    a repetitive feeling is what i get from reading this. ;)

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  2. Dead Man Walking14 February 2011 at 21:50

    When you shout at the top of your voice in front of that 1 person trying to push through that 1 perspective - your perspective - amidst his/hers.... and vice-versa.... I know the feeling.

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  3. Unknown15 February 2011 at 09:56

    But I ask myself secretly,

    There was no you,
    Was it only me?

    :)

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  4. Zoya Brar15 February 2011 at 10:47

    @ anonymous - the stories are all the same, only characters change!

    @ dmw - :)

    @ riddhi - ah, me too ;-)

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  5. Sasha21 April 2011 at 07:02

    kudos to you:D

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