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Pretense

I hear you say,
what you can't speak.

I see you hope,
what you cant perceive.

I sense you imagine,
what you cant believe.

I feel you desire,
what you cant achieve.

But I continue to pretend,
for your self-esteem.


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  1. Anonymous5 February 2011 at 23:00

    Ever thought you might OWE him (or her...) a dose of reality check?

    - ASnonymous?

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  2. Unknown5 February 2011 at 23:12

    Written for the self, this one?

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  3. Zoya Brar6 February 2011 at 00:25

    Yes riddhi :)

    AS that should also your question

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  4. Anonymous6 February 2011 at 02:12

    Some emotions don't make a lot of noise...really.
    ~atam

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  5. Zoya Brar6 February 2011 at 08:10

    true that!

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  6. Anonymous6 February 2011 at 16:55

    Freud will have a field day on this one. He will have to create a fourth tier of self: beyond id, ego and super-ego.

    Do you remember studying anything about a Dirac-Delta function in 12th grade? If yes, I have a beautiful analogy from Physics (yes... there is no contradiction in that sentence :-) If not, it will have to wait till we have a whiteboard in front of us.

    - ASnonymous

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