Life Itself

And then he turns to her… “Save me”, he says. [Is thunder enough to shake her? Or does she need the rain? She told him it’s all over, Then why did he turn again??] She looks at him, And asks herself “Why?” [Friends don’t kill each other Then why did she let him die?] Tears stream down Crying for him Crying for her Is there anyone to blame? Sorrow erases sorrow And pain soothes pain He holds her hand in his She firmly pulls it away. “It’s over”, she repeats, Loud and clear. Can relief be enough reason?? Can love sway? [Yes, she did love him deeply But it faded away.] He looks at her And weeps And with each drop Her soul: hardening This is the last goodbye. Her joy His grief [What grows together… Doesn’t always die in oneness… It’s a sad picture Sorrow begging, misery] She turns He turns Knowing so well They may never meet But in their hearts She knows He feels There is never a goodbye. Every tear they cry, Will heal.

In my mothers womb I heard a voice talk Unlike other infants And to my mothers wrath, It was my father sharing Many of his thoughts. One day about a prince The other day about some frogs But the best was only one The one told everyday About dolls and frocks. As I grew from womb to school He taught me how to dance How to spell my name How to walk Everything…. [Memory fades away] Then one night as I slept I heard him softly walk away I pretended to be asleep And he preferred it that way I guess he was scared Scared, I would blame. I never stopped him And he never stayed We slowly grew apart And things began to change I learned to live without him To dance my own way I even learned to write Though our style's grew astray Then one day 15 years from the last in womb I sent him a poem I wanted to know what he thought If he thought I could rhyme A year passed And no reply I gave up But continued to write. 4th of June: Today I opened

Furious thoughts unevenly spread Scribble, scribble quibble, quibble Addicted Dipped in ink Inspiration flowing Attended, passed. One idea, Then another instead. Using, abusing Ranting ahead Jotting, blotting Said, still unsaid Cross out Write again Frustrated, determined Driven, insane Crush the paper Throw away the pen Words knifed across the arm Hate inscribed and left to interpret Deed done Life lost A final word and at it, left

Suddenly they separate Falling like tears from a dream Drop by drop Touching me Wiping away ink from paper breaking and shaking word by word reaching out leaving me dishevelled With only memories tear by tear washing me

Frosted emotions   Kept unseen Latched in boxes Sewn in seams Voiceless feelings Hidden inside Knotted and crushed Put out of sight Bustling anger Jostling tears Curtains drawn Concealed fears Silenced guilt Empty screams Tearless hurt Broken dreams Almost said Then left alone Too scared to cry? So smile in stone.

Stifling within I want you to know It’s tearing me apart Beginning to show Hear the words I do not say Feel the things I can’t portray Chorus Grant me loved wings Let me soar Hear my heart Give it a cure See the tears I cried so long Silence covers All my sound And I look at you So calm, sincere Your eyes speak Why won’t you care? Chorus Hold me close Hear me say Love me now Don’t go away It kills me so Can’t keep this inside I love you Don’t want it to hide Chorus*2 (fade)

A brown tattered album Frayed by hands of the past Yellowed termite eaten pages Memories burned and aghast Old frayed thoughts Touching faces captured in pose Looking and feeling An era of long ago A smile etched on paper A tear cried and captured Wine, salt and emotions Left to enrapture Last threads that tie Today with yesterday Pictures in history Imprinted again in memory