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Almost Me

In between almost perfect and nearly organized.
In between half confused and mostly unsure.
In between maybe and could be.
In between somewhere and nowhere.
In between now and never.
There,
Almost me.

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  1. Unknown17 May 2011 at 09:01

    In between what is and what was
    In between a memory and a dream
    In between spring and summer
    In between you and me,
    There always will be
    An almost me.

    :)

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  2. Anonymous20 May 2011 at 03:20

    hhmmmm !!
    where is miss perfection - where is the little baby - the fighter cock ?
    all this is fine - ok - good - but some fun and some naughtiness - whenever you are in that mood - write about that too.
    you write beautifully about ........all that you do.
    how about your present - the everyday life ?
    wont say anonymous :-)

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